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Tuesday, April 13, 2010

i need strength...;(


wat would it feels to be abandon???? hav u ever feel it before? i do...yesterday,today,tomorrow or even someday...i admit it..i do...i really hate being in this kind of situation...faithfully..its hurt me soo badly...its lacerate my heart onto pieces....i noe..im a bad person,im not good enough to be on their side..but nobody's perfect..think deeply wat n how does i felt when they juz threw me juz like dat...tell me..! we used to be loving each other more than anything...but u broke my heart...we r walking 2gether..n its hard 4 those other to separating us..but its u that broke our fortress,u the one who impure n contaminate our grasp... finally they walk in a pair..leaving the others with questions n thought...why?? why?? why?? how could u!!! i love u!! i really do...god knows..He heard me...im not interest to tell anybody about wat i feel, coz u r da only place where i disgorge all of my sadness,my sorrow,my everything...now u gone..leaving me to the rest...they asking me with a cynical face...hmmm..;( so,i better thinks that two is bettr than one,three or four..even we used to hanging out together,i felt empty..n i think i better walk alone,n juz let u be with the one that u feel comfy..everyday was nothing 4 me..i've lost my confidence,n my humour...im no longer bubbly as i used to be..im tired of this..dats y i juz letting u go..im sorie if my decision hurts u n creating angryness or madness..but i hav to..im ashame of myself n i ashame with u...i cant go back coz i really hurt..im suffered a lot!!! i always pray 4 ur happiness n healthyness..god bless u all..

Saturday, April 10, 2010

daughter to father..

abah...selamat hari jadi yg ke56..smoge pjg umur dan di murahkan rezeki...i see many suffer,pain,n sadness in your eyes...i can see it all..but i cant show it to u..im egoistic..i never said dat i love u father...i never said i wanna hug u...its so deeply in my heart...i want to..truly..but i cant...i never used to it...ur wife said it too..ALLAH..please...give him strength to live...we want to be with him for a long time..eternity..i've done so many bad things to him..im sorie for all of my mistaken..

fully hurtful..


saya kurang ajar dgn suami saya tadi!!!! huwaaaaa!!! sadly...ayg..im really sorie...i didnt mean to hurt u..i feel so sucks..ayg,listen..i noe u love me,i noe u care...i juz wanted ur attention..b juz nak manje2 ngan syg..b ingat ayg pujok b nanti..tp b silap...i was wrong..!!! forgive me sygs...i love u more than ever..im sorie..im sorie...im sorie...im sorie...im sorie...!

Friday, April 9, 2010

son of a bitch..

hell itu neraka.. tmpt di mana kau bersemadi suatu ari nnti...these day la...too many bad things happen to me...i juz didnt know wat to do...its really freak me out..stop la interuppting our personal life smpi nak bertumbok plak ngan laki aku...gilers!! its that friends should be? its not nice la dude...think positif. jgn la mende2 shit plus rubbish ni pon ko nak bsr2kan...hahahahahahah...funny though.. bodoh siyal ko ni...wat do u want from me hah xtually? u r killing me wit ur stupidity...if u r da real stone cold steve austin....fight like a man la....xpyh bwk member sekote ko tu...pahal la..!! adoyai...puffffffffff...!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

ke'genting'an...ke'highland'san


happiness is mine!!! hahhhahhahha..wyh3?? coz we r having a greatest day at genting higlands...i'd tried literally everything...feels like i wanna throw up almost everything..shhhittt..! fenin! xpecially da rotating cawan!!! wat da hell!! honestly,even its damn crazy n obviously out of my freakin mind we r still having fun kan yayunk????!! hhheheheheheheh...gosh! encore3!!!! mau lg..'klu kt kaye kang kt g lg ye syg??' said yayunk...huhuhu...i'll wait...duhhh..!'xkan la aku ni kaki shaver kot nak mengikis treasure org even dye laki aku kan? not nice la tenok!! hahahaha...anyway syg..we can share our money 2gether n having much more fun..ur love is my drug..u make me high over u...hell yeah baby!!! mmmuahhh! love u freakin damn much!!

Monday, March 1, 2010

hari2ku indah...

he doing something that blew my mind away..but i forgive him..
maybe people say that i'm crazy...i am crazy...gilak sama dia..! idris syafieku...
hari2ku sepi tanpe dye...aitcehhh...syahdu...anyway,ayg...i love u more than eva..
if those bitch trying to stole u from me..i'll kick their asssssss!!! smpai lobang kubor ku cari dikau jalang2 sekalian...! im not who u think la!!! hey bitch..remember this...idris syafie is only mine n forever...!!! try me if u insist bodoh!! huh!!! dasar lu olang betinos sundal!! dont mess with my man ya fucker!!!!!!! klu x,pukimu dilobang jubomu!!!hahahahhahahahahahhahahaha....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

gilaks life

i gave u trust,but u betray me...why?
its hurt a lot..i'll try to keep it but i cant..my angsty burst! u hurt me..
when u say,'b! syg penat lah! jgn mase ni bley x!!' i was like kene tikam ngan pisau..
syg listen,no matter how tired i am.im always loving u each day,each moment..
its not dat hard being sincere ryte? u can say dat too...im tired,but it doesnt mean im tired of u..plisss syg,respect me, love me, coz i need u more than u do..hmmmmm....